I have been wrestling with the best way to write this post for the last few weeks.  I finally figured out the best way to do it last Sunday, but have had a very busy week.  I wanted to write a post about another song by Steven Curtis Chapman, Whatever.  Listen to it here.

One reason that I was wrestling with this post is that I don’t want to express doubt, fear or worry about going to Kenya.  What I realized again last Sunday is that the cross was not Jesus’ first choice.  He didn’t want to go to the cross.  He prayed, “Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.” (Luke 22:42)

I am not trying to draw a comparison from being a missionary to going to die on a cross.  The reason I bring that up is that today is Good Friday, and it gave me peace to be honest about my doubt, fear and worry.  If I am honest with people becoming a missionary is scary, and it isn’t easy.  A lot of the time I have doubts, fears, and worries about life and right now they are often centering on being a missionary.  In some ways being a missionary would not be my first choice.  However, in a lot more ways it is mine.  Like the song says, I wrote a list of the ways that I thought that God wanted to use me.  In the end, I needed to get rid of that list, because ultimately what God wants from me or you is to do whatever He says.  Now, He is saying for me to go to Kenya.  What is He saying for you to do?

I already gave away myself and life.  I have become “a living sacrifice.”(Romans 12:1)  My life no longer belongs to me. (Romans 14:8)  I know that I am supposed to go to Kenya.  God is providing in incredible ways.  When I tell people that there is a One-Time cost of $25,214 they get the same sticker shock I got.  The same thing happens with the monthly need of $2,739.  However, God has already 51% of the monthly need and 40% of the One-Time.  That is so encouraging and confirms that He is a part of this.  There is no way that I could have done that.  So I know that God is doing this.  This strengthens and encourages my faith that He will continue to work and lead not just in my life but others.  In a lot of ways I am relying on God’s provision to come from others.

The main ways to join in this ministry is through prayer and finances.  To join my prayer support team sign up here.  You are also able to give financially here, both monthly and One-Time gifts are needed.  To commit monthly in the future please email me.  If there is any other way that you feel led to support or have questions please email me also.



About John

I enjoy spending time with my family and friends. I am from Mableton, Ga. I studied Computer Science at Georgia Tech. Then I earned a Masters of Arts in Intercultural Studies from Asbury Theological Seminary. I am now serving with SIM in Kenya working in Information Technology.
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